I’m powerful, and strong, and resilient; even inside this shrinking body that contains me.
I refuse unannounced wheeling trips to complete procedures, check ups, and infusions. “ Tell me what comes next, so I won't be anxious.”
Shhhh … For everyone’s mental convenience, let's play this absurd charade in which I'm still in control and all of you obey, and in exchange, I'll pretend that you've mastered the precision of the needle and all your mentors were Nobel geniuses. Anyway…. Doesn't matter. I'm powerful, and strong, and resilient; because I'm coming from a lineage of exceptional, victorious women that overcome their epochal restrictions, and others’ prejudice and injustices; women seekers of goodwill and closures, gatherers of healing flora and ominous winds, rare creatures that command their fears allowing Love and Honor to lead their battle.
And if all this inherited vitality ends up not being sufficient…
You! Beware! I have already died of thousands deaths and resurrected the day I promised unrelenting happiness to them. I have tendered the signs of hell on my own mother, and together we have overcome the presence of The Serpent. I've been taught by Prometeus and the Titans about laughing, giving and helping as an antidote for fear. And if all this acquired proficiency ends up not being sufficient…
Oh, yes! You!!!! Beware! I have an infinite reservoir of affection and containment that I’ve been collecting over the years. The closest and dearest ones, that are always here, kissing, listening, laughing, warming the bed and the soul. And the others, Pure and grateful love. Forever present. Met in, now, distant places, amazed young faces in the classroom, giggling confessions in the playground, the every day miracles of growing up, graduation tears, hughs … Year by year.
Oh, yes! You! Listen! Beware! Love I have on my side. The kind of love that lifts and carries when legs and guts just can't. I’m powerful, and strong, and resilient. Because I've learned from the best to command my Fear and, ( I'm telling you now …) I will allow this immense Love to lead the battle.
